Wish you all the bestestestest:)
There is something to be said for being able to actually post your thoughts in plain text.
First and most important!!!
My niece is at home save and sound with her mommy and daddy and brother where she SHOULD have been for past 7 months. My sister won her case against the CPS (child protection services).
No family should go through hell like this, EVER!!!! if anyone who hasn't read this yet... wishes to.. www.sosquebec.com, THIS is what they call protection in this God forsaken province.
Now, you know what? I am sorry, I actually like Quebec, I actually LIKE being able to use two languages with anyone I meet (almost)... but I DO HATE all the red tape and all the fighting and all the freedom deprivation we have here on occasion. it is ridiculous.
So, thank you ALL who listened, helped, offered to help and just was there for me and my family in the time of need. You are the true faces of friendship.
On the second note, after getting the news of my sister wining, I got this strange email from someone with my last name... from everything I can see, I was found by my baby half-brother. I am about 98% its him. I have been looking for him myself for quiet a while and met few interesting ppl in my search (I now have an honorary brother and a sister:)) lol..
I am not sure how I feel about this whole my family in the past thing. I have ALWAYS wanted to know about them and my mom could not really tell me much, either through selective memories or just not wanting to remember.
So, i am excited that I may actually get two sides of the story, and if not... well... I just made a new friend. He is an amazing photographer and I believe he is also a musician.
oh ad he is 11 years my junior:)
..... that's in in a nutshell, more to come later:)
I hope you are all doing well.
for latest pics, do me a fav and check the facebook, I am too lazy to upload them here for now:)
- Location:Work
- Mood:
ecstatic - Music:Andrea Bocelli
The fact that I just held a very tired baby in my arms for 7 hours straight because mommy is NOT allowed to sit when C is not feeling well... besides the fact that I am up since 5 am almost TWO days ago...and the fact that I just had to deal with a cut over of all our DSL clients to a new OC3... I am still frakking UP taking care of R (who is finally asleep) and C who is NOT and her fever is NOT being brought down by motrin anymore. She has a severe ear infection and is howling like someone is killing her.
All I want to do is jump out of the window (preferably higher then a second floor).
How can I possibly think of handling a third kid? WTF am I thinking?!!
:S
PS I ended up with the fever last night. the shakes the aches and everything else to go with it. poor Evil has not slept a wink last night from coughing his lungs out...
God Bless my mom for helping us out and coming to take care of the kiddies!!!!
- Mood:
intimidated
We are all well and happy. Kiddies are growing like weeds and keep surprising us every day. It is amazing what they are capable of.
A friend just asked me why on earth I would want to have another kid?! with this look of horror on her face. How do you answer something like that? especially to someone who has no kids? How do you explain the happiness and pride your little one can bring you? lol or the frustraton or expasperation they can cause you withing seconds.
How do you explain that you get to live your life over again through their eyes? that the snow... all of a sudden becomes a most enticing dessert after you rolled down the hill? or that mommy letting you eat an icicle can make your day?..
well... you can't explain... so I just resorted to// "you'll understand when you have kids" an answer I HATE to give, but do anyway.
all this is to say, I LOVE MY KIDS, I LOVE MY HUSBAND and I LOVE MY LIFE (granted, I despise my job,but hey... its been 8 years... time to move on)
I will post some more pics here soon, but those who have access to facebook and are listed as my friends should be able to access them:)
I have to get back to work for now, but I promise to update soon.
BTW, congrats to Hallegards on their gorgeous brand new baby boy:)
- Mood: content
Lots of love and prosperity and yada yada... you all know what I mean... can't write THAT much sap, it might break LJ.
Love you.
If a child
If a child lives with criticism,
he learns to condemn.
If a child lives with hostility,
he learns to fight.
If a child lives with ridicule,
he learns to be shy.
If a child lives with shame,
he learns to feel guilty.
If a child lives with tolerance,
he learns to be patient.
If a child lives with encouragement,
he learns confidence.
If a child lives with praise,
he learns to appreciate.
If a child lives with fairness,
he learns justice.
If a child lives with security,
he learns to have faith.
If a child lives with approval,
he learns to like himself.
If a child lives with acceptance and friendship,
He learns to find love in the world.
Amanda Cater
- Mood: ecstatic
I am not saying I was missing in a FUN action. Kids of course have been sick. Husband... sick... me... sick. Started with a simple cold..
Crys ended up in the hospital a week ago because she was having and asthma attack. at 16 months!! Goddamit.
Who needs a workout when you have a 22lbs little one in your arms for 16 hours straight fighting every single mask of ventolin (there were 10 of them) with all her strength. and do not underestimate her freakish strengh. She can easily take on her brother and win.
R. has been a trooper, he is sick too, but he is holding up so well. And being a wonderful little boy (for most part:))
on top of all this fun, we were hit with the stomach bug. noting more horrible then having to sit on the toilet while holding a big bowl in your arms because you are not sure which end to take care of first. Crys has been puking for a week also. YAY FUN FUN FUN!!!
Hubby is sick and also had a tummy bug, and we all know what its like when a man is sick... it is the end of the world... me, I take the meds and go to work... (have to contaminate the rest of the world, don't i?)
on the other hand... Christmas is coming! YAY!! I can't wait to see the look in the kiddies' eyes when the tree goes up:)
we are definitely not doing anything major this year. just going to enjoy the family time together (we don't get much of it lately) and we will take it easy. No parties!!!!! no pressure!!!
it has been a strange year. some friends have been lost. some in a very finite way and some just because they (or us) grew out of each other. Some friends have shown their true colors and you know that they will be there for you just like you want to be there for them.
I am noticing that I am much less tolerant of people. Perhaps because I do not feel like I have much time to waste, I do not wish to bother on relationships that are only there because you 'feel obliged'.
Cocojack, you know I love you and I miss you very much. and some friends who barely keep the LJ going, you know who I am talking about.
anyhow, it seems that this post (like all others) has no point to it, and that's how I like it. at least you know I am still among the living (even if only barely:)).
I shall update more often if I can... but then again.. there is always facebook... I do not hate it. I actually like it enough to use it.
Rohan and I went to the funeral of a very close friend of mine yesterday. my son was on his best behavior (even being sicky) for FIVE hours. My friends wife actually called me to thank me for providing a sweet little sunshine on a horrible stormy emotional day.
I cannot believe Punkie is gone. And all the 'what ifs' and all the regrets are running through my head at all hours of the day and night.
I should have seen him more, I should have known that things were THAT bad... yada yada yada... but in the end, I keep thinking that it was simply a chemical imbalance and that the only thing that could have helped (at least temporarily) is to institutionalize him.
I just hope that he is happier where ever he is now. I think it would really help if I WAS religious. But I am not (at least not in an organized religion kind of way). I DO believe that I will see him again. and I DID promise to kick his sorry ass when I do.
All this made me realize what a wonderful life I have and that I need to enjoy it for every single moment of it. Including getting up with the kids 7 times in six hours. I HAVE THEM to get up for. and for that I am forever grateful.
OK, enough of the sapfest... No one reads this LJ anyway. heh.
Oh, Rohan has a headache, a tummy ache and a sore throat and now a nasty cough... and Crys is throwing ROYAL tantrums at anything that doesn't go her was in the slightest. Yes, with the throwing herself on the floor and kicking her feet. She is sooo cute when I look at her as I walk away. She looks at me and you can see in her eyes (OH CRAP, IT IS NOT WORKING AGAIN!!!!:))
or
I wish you all wonderful people a great Mother's Day!!!
Gotta run, hubby is making an awesome brunch for me:) Whooo hoooooo!
Funny how only few friends remembered it. Thank you to those of you who did. I know it is not a big deal, but it is nice to actually matter to someone.
Now, an uninterrupted night of sleep could make up for a lot ;)
Good night to you all.
- Mood:
disappointed
Oh well, I am much better now:) wonder whats next.
I have kept R home from daycare for past few weeks (since his visit to emergency room). I CAN'T make myself send him back. I LOVE having him with me. And he gets so much more fun! We get to go to 3Z, ecomuseum, parcs, shopping, walks. He knows the whole aplhabet by heart and knows how to spell his full name. knows his address and phone number. I don't mean that he knows the stupid song... he KNOWS the letters and if you show a letter to him he will tell you what it is and a few words that begin with that letter. I am sure that it is normal for a 2.5 year old, but he did NOT get this from school. He also starting to understant Russian and Punjabi.
I need to figure out a way to stay home with the kids. I don't think my job is worth the effort to go back to.
VENT VENT VENT.
I better go, R is being killed by C.
I wonder if its the triplets I had a dream about last week..
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Crys is on the mend too, she is all happy and giggly most of the time. But girl needs her beauty sleep or else. Just like her momma. Not that her momma gets any sleep. Between two sick babies and a hubby who snores like a tractor, I decided to give up on EVER getting any sleep again. Oh, and even if kids are asleep and hubby not home... someone either will call, or ring a door bell, or start shouting outside of our house, or firetrucks be going by... Hmmmmm... can you say bad sleep karma?
Anywhow, I am still sick as a dog, but God Bless Advil Cold and Flu!!!!
Right now, R is jumping around in his room for past almost 2 hours when he SHOULD be sleeping. AND he is doing his best to wake Crystal up. That means... that he will most likely take his nap when she is awake and THAT means that I will not be taking any.
I realized why I don't get anything done around the house. I am SO tired all the time, I keep TRYING to get a nap. But since it never works, I stay tired and crabby and becoming quiet good at shouting at my kids.
But at least Rohan is finally going potty like a big dude that he is. I never thought it would take to the age of 2.5+ to train him. Oh well, better late then ever.
Anyhow, better go tet some coffee made...
Now, it is late and I need to get some sleep before my littlest one wakes up for a snack and then another snack and... lol. Right now I am happy to be nursing her. it seems to be the best remedy for the illnesses.
Thank you all for your concern.
O
- Mood:
and relieved
I know it is hard to make a phone call from there because cells are not allowed and I don't recall seeing a payphone by the waiting room.
R. has a horrible cough, with throwing up and all that fun. the vomiting is due to the accumulation of phlegm (he doesn't know how to spit it out yet). FRAK AND FRAK AND FRAK! So, with the coughing came... wheezing and.... very rapid, shallow breath... are you thinking what I am thinking? Asthma? I don't know... cause my hubby hasn't called me yet!!!
AGHHHH, I am climbing out of my skin here! But then again, when I went there with Crys, I had to wait for over 6 hours for them to tell me that they had NO IDEA what was wrong.
Sorry, I guess I just needed to vent.
I'll update later.
now its 2pm
and R is home and seems no worse for the wear. A little hyper but its better then him NOT being so:) Keeping an eye on him for now:)
......now 11am
he is still waiting for xray results
so far went through 5-6 rounds of ventilin? (sp), but they think it is something viral. still breathing fast and very rapid heartbeat...
- Mood:
worried
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